Become the most filthy person in the world, be the worst one. One day when you be alone, and start thinking, something slips into your heart, and you feel loneliness. And you feel that something is pulling you and that's Allah, you live just for 7 or 8 decades or who knows how much, but there's Hereafter, that you will live forever, if you go to hell, you be there forever, if you go to heaven you be there forever, just choose and grind towards it, this filthy world doesn't worth it

never forget why you were born and why you are living.
i mean, repent to God, the Real God who created you and still giving you a breath and food. Research about Islam and its the most correct way In Sha Allah.